School, Life, and Misc

-First day of school was Wednesday. I wasnt impressed by any of my classes.
-I'm gonna KILL this Mkting and Advertising class. I took the professor before and it seems like me and another gentleman are the "designated smart ones"...people were already telling me they gotta sit next to me for answers...i just said "Aint nothing cheap over here. I gotta eat too". REAL TALK. "If you're good at something, never do it for free."-The Joker
-A bare minimum of 2 chicks in every class that i would talk to or engage in sexual relations with. Big time SMH
-LMAO @ me playing the corner in class and keeping to myself.
-I hate freshmen. No one cares what you're wearing.
-Date tonight with the Dominican....cliche but we're going to BBQ's. she wanted ribs. i want food.
-What the fuck is it with all these chicks claiming "I'm the boss?"...then when i say (straight faced) "If you're the boss, write me a check and show me a tax ID #"...it gets quiet? if you're not built like that, shut the fuck up!!!! A cat like me.....I got no time for some random ass (or any) chick for that matter trying to "boss" me around. Input is neccessary of course, but I aint letting no chick blatantly talk to me any type of way.

  • case in point: the Dominican SOMEHOW how the cajoles to call me "pussy"...i hung the phone up on that slut fast...she then sends a text like "I'm sorry, i fucked up..i REALLY fucked up..forgive me..blah blah". so she did it again the next convo. I hung up on the ho again. she then has the nerve to tell me I'm rude and she just plays around like that with her guy friends all the time. (1) I'm not your "guy friend". I'm a dude you met who wants to see where this goes and how far it will. I dont know you like that. NEVER get to comfortable with someone who's willing to replace you with the next chick. EVER.(2) I could be a psychopath (could be? HA!!!! ZING!!!) with a dislike for disrespectful people. (3) That's a fighting word right there...either way, i let her know i dont want her calling me that and that I'd wipe my hands of her if it continued. I havent heard that word come out of her mouth since. Then again, my brother did tell me Dominican women have a nasty habit of pushing buttons, moreso that a regular female would. His girl done said some foul shit to him...shit i woulda BEEN left her about..i have an extremely low tolerance for disrespectful people and time wasting bullshit.
Fuck outta here!! I'm this close to being THAT nigga!!! If the females i meet REALLY knew what was going on with me, it'd be a wrap...but I'm not trying to be a target so......And of course, i know that's a turn on for them when a dude stands up to them.
-Is that why i'm so against marriage now?Seriously...what do men get outta marriage? partly due to seeing my parents marriage go to hell..partly because i know men would cheat, but think "it's cheaper to keep her"..partly because i dont trust em further than i could throw em; when you're married, you're STUCK..partly because i'm too immature and emotionally unavailable (according to certain females)....partly because i dont see what men get outta marriage besides having to come home to a wife who (depending on her emotional swings) may/may not be receptive to them...and the overwhelming stories i hear of women changing because they know they have the guy and he aint going no where? i think too much.
-I might have to charge one of my prospects to the Game.i deleted another one outta my phonebook...I'm at the point where even if i'm just trying to "kick it" steez with a female, I need them to bring something other to the table besides a pretty face. She seems to want help in stepping her game up, and i can sense she just needs some sense of direction, but i dont see any ambition. She's EXTREMELY cute/pretty but
  • she's a HEAVY weed smoker. I stopped all that shit a month ago. Time to focus
  • she's always complaining about her life, yet i never hear a course of action. people like that are dead weight to me
  • she has self esteem/insecurity issues (i can deal with it in my sleep, but in general, I DESPISE insecure people. I asked her "What are your talents..what are you good at?"....she ignored the question. She has a tongue ring if that matters so maybe her fellatio game is top notch.
  • she's forgetful (prolly due to the weed)
  • "Every Taurus guy i dated was ambitious and good with $. My moms is a Taurus and she doesnt mes around."...but yet, when i ask if she can bring any assets, the shit sounded like a mime...
  • i get the feeling she's a liar...telling me she doesnt like talking or texting or IMing on the phone....but she has a SK!! that's like the God phone for people who talk, text and IM!! (until they step their game up and get a BB like me :-p)...or maybe she dont be paying her bill...when i first approached her @ Canal St, i called her phone and her # was disconnected and she did give me a slight lil attitude about giving me her #, so i could see where that comes in. Shoot, if a dude like me walked up to a pretty girl and her phone was off, I'd be embarrassed for her, that is...until she told me she has a job. It's not that hard to pay your phone bill. Either way, I just told her "Look, i aint gonna know your answer till i ask for it..right?"...gave it to me faster than Pietro Maximoff (wikipedia that name)....NYC women..too difficult for their own good?...."A chick is a chick, a nut is a nut/and they alays keep a attitude till you butter em up."-Jadakiss-
-I have a class with You Know Who. i honestly dont care anymore. Past is the past. Grew up and acknowledged my mistakes. I'm for the bottom line, which is a A- or B lowest. W/e and whoever gets gets the job is welcome on my committee
-I'm gonna soooooo mindfuck this girl tonight. We already go at it. She cant handle my sarcasm
-No Labor Day Parade. I gotta pay this tuition and shit. Too much fuckery going on for my tastes anyway.
-Team USA REALLY dominated their competition. I dled most of the games. These cats were not fuckin' around
-I'm stoked about Def Jam on Tuesday.
-Song of the Day..Kanye West, "Peace"

Thus Far

-Dream Team won the Gold for USA...i've been on mixmakers.net downloading games...
-starting at Def Jam next Tuesday..i have a feeling I'll be there longer than this semester.
-IMG...we're looking for new clients...didnt sign JL but fuck it..it's their loss. We're at the stage where we're not giving a damn anymore. It's us and we know what we can offer. Ya'll bitches better get us while it's cheap

"Everything's for dough now/Flow ya'll gotta pay a little mo' now"-Jay-z

-met quite a few interesting ladies over the past few weeks...got a date Friday. i'm not a good first dater, but it's just so happened that I've known my last few first dates for a while so some of the nervousness is out the door.Not that i'm a nervous person....the glasses definitely are a good look
-I've been EXTREMELY self confident...i love it..
-g0nna have to work double shifts on Sundays till i'm done with this tuition payment plan. I wouldnt have it any other way. I've always worked well with my back against the wall. Hell, even better than with no pressure on me at all...i dunno how i'll pay for books and all...but i'll find a way..my mom cut me off so...........
-Mentally unprepared for school and graduation, yet looking forward to Def Jam. I dont care about school anymore but since I'm paying for it outta pocket, i'm 150% dedicated
-I cant put a price tag on how my last "relationship" brought out a lotta stuff out in me, good and bad. At least I know for a fact what i want now.
-With that said, i'm not gonna have time for a serious committed relationship...Ironically, I've noticed that females want relationships when the weather cools down,etc...UGH. my timing is ALWAYS off lol...
-Lately, I've been allergic to the phrases "I'm a good girl" and "I'm not like any girl you've dealt with before"...show and prove shawty...I dont even like saying "I'm different" to girls because I'm not one to broadcast and then let people down. I keep it funky...what you see is what you get...just so happens that I'm a selective extrovert lol
-I love having the ability to gain trust easily and getting to know what buttons to push with people AND pushing them. Always have had those talents, even as a young'in. Talking to this one chick with self esteem issues and stuff...she didnt wanna "freak me out"..i'm thinking she got the monster...turns out she's insecure and i saw that from the moment I approached her...overcompensating for insecurity with piercings and tattoos and shit....wants "to chill" already..what can i say....she's getting the iron while it's hot...
-I've found a balance between arrogance and confidence. I'm gonna be at Def Jam silently and efficiently executing objectives. I'm in a new environment, no need to talk shit (out loud lol)

A Sista's Opinion



I can agree with her for the most part. Too bad. I like who likes me. Black,white,spanish,whoever...

not to say that us Black men are perfect cuz we can be foul when we wanna be...but at least we KNOW we're foul when we're being so...womp womp...

I Feel Like

"I like fast cars, I love faster chicks ,You don't need a small waist, I take ass and tits/Love chicks that deep throat, love bein left alone on a Sunday afternoon with the remote/Love havin my cake plus eatin it too Shit, I got cake what the fuck I'm 'posed to do/Like chicks to dress, but I love a good shoe,Sophisticated mama with love for the hood too/Love sexin girls on that boricua shit
Love black girls that's when the Levi's fit/Chicks that play hard to get on that Aaliyah shit ,If at first I don't succeed, then believe I split/Can you blame me? Young buck, dirty-ass pops trained me/Moms allowed it, daddy was about it Game got inherited /Mama said if you find love you better cherish it Teach me! "-Jay-z, "Mi Amor"


I'm Nice

NAILED my "interview" at DJ....it was basically...what did you do, what have you done, what are you looking for, when can you start...

i was given a tour of the office by my homegirl...saw LA Reid's office (he has a receptionist then his grand office)...they had a office that was formerly a barbershop when the old regime was in... LMAO

Sony has yet to call back to reschedule my interview but i'm thinking about DJ HEAVILY..gonna list my pros and cons later

My Duality

Team USA's playing Angola in 36 minutes and i wanna see what the hype is about. I'm absolutely tired from the gym and other stuff that's been going on. yet i woke up early after "the late night convo" lol...yes already it's about 8:24. 6 hours of sleep sucks.

Anyway, i was thinking about this...i guess it came to me in my sleep...i'm a creature of duality..actually been thinking about it since the Jill Scott concert last night, where she said something that struck a chord in me...she was talkin about all the men who tend to not trust woman..and how we gotta remember the lady in church who always prayed for us, the one who kept us safe from bullies and finally, the one who carried us for 9 months......if i could just piece it all together...

Karsten-the smart 8 year old who was reading The NY Times and encyclopedias for fun.the kid who was deemed special since he was left-handed. the kid who was his father's son (to the T). thought my dad could do no wrong. who was always too smart for his own good like when he asked a teacher in his Christian school "Did Jesus have a penis?".the kid who, no matter the answer, ALWAYS questioned why things are the way they are. the under the radar type. the social misfit in High School who stuck to himself. the kid with a mesmerizing knack for oratory.the kid with ALL the talent in the world, who just needed a mentor and direction to piece it all together. who wrote poetry for females he was interested in. the kid who wanted a quality girl for himself because he saw that women could hold it down for the men AND without a man if that was the case. who read his Bible and prayed that God would mold him into the man He wanted him to be. who found hurt whenever he lied to his mother. highly confident, but not "in your face". a quiet, lead by example type. a trusted personality. charismatic and magnetic with a unique talent for having people at ease and able to open up to him. workaholic. the kid who older women adored because of his intellect, old soul ways and nicely formed teeth (genetics..thanks mom). wouldnt exactly be the first choice for females on a looks basis, but knew that the mind can verbalize words to make any woman swoon. loyal and devoted to friends. the kid who idolized Malcolm X for dying for his principles, Jay-z for his business acumen, Nat Turner for his efforts to stand against slavery, and MLK for his mastery over oratory. the "proud to be Black" type. the class clown. the bookworm who stayed to himself while his little brother got all the girls. always up to something, usually mischievous but with no malicious intent. college student. president of his own marketing company. ambitious. great cook. ability to make females blush with his poetry, laugh with his humor or spark conversations with his tongue in cheek sarcasm. the man who learned how to appreciate a woman not just for her body, but for being the best woman she can be. knows the power of eye contact with females. extremely conversational with th ability to make people the center of attention. dreams of a wife and beautiful kids. a ability to get what he wants, just not always in his timing.HATES the spotlight and prefers to work alone and under the radar. uncanny ability to gain trust from people.the determined man who realizes that what Rudy said is true: "You dont have to be an aggressive businessman and drive people out of your life."I pray I'm forgiven for every decision i made, every sista I've played cuz I'm still paranoid to this day"-Jay-z...your mother's dream son in law

then you have what my boys like to call "100K" (not even my rhymin' alter ego...this incarnation is a trip)

"I'm the type of nigga your father oppose"-Jay-z. "I'd rather beat my dick than trick/and if she dont suck, then we dont fuck"-Notorious B.I.G..oppurtunistic, and not in a good sense of the word.has a fear of having a daughter..the know it all who didnt like someone else's method, unless they could show him how it was better than his in any way,shape or form. not really a () hound, but deems it HIGHLY important in male/female relationships, to the point of it being a breaking point. aggressive and brash, and can talk shit to and with the best of them. the prototypical Brooklyn swagger mixed with Machiavellian intents to form the world as he sees fit. take no prisoners attitude. the rule for anything is: "Get with it or get lost". very uncouth. misogynist who cant trust women because he's seen some of the best looking sistas with STDs or triflin' ways, not to mention his own mother saying that "Black men aint shit" (in few words, unlike her usual style lol). defensive about misogyny. stubborn. rude. abrasive without fear. the one who once said "They call me an asshole;I call it insurance". the kid who's SCARED of absorbing his father's flaws into his psyche...yet gets scared when pops said i look/act EXACTLY how he did at my age. brooding and cynical. conniving with a Flatbush ice grill. the man child who looks at life in black/white. eager to cut "lame" people out of his life, he's determined not to be a meal ticket for anyone. the "You thinking life, i'm thinking more like what's up tonight" type. wont intentionally walk over a woman's heart, but gets antsy if sex isnt involved at a certain point of the relationship. lives with regrets about decisions he's made concerning females, but justifies it with a "Next > ex" mentality. a total cynic. brutally honest with no tact. ACCURATE ability to remember conversations and bring them up to make a point. driven by fear of not trying anything at least once, the younger version of 100K once pulled out his penis on a group of girls in middle school. young, dumb and full of cum. always calculating, conniving, scheming. can look you in the eye and tell you the truth, with a signature dash of arrogance and bass in his voice to make you feel like shit. doesnt fall too far from the "typical Jamaican man" stereotype. would leave a female in a heartbeat. a true grimy nigga who knows what he does is wrong but does it for the hell of it. defensive as hell. determined not to become a statistic. enjoys alcohol as much as the average 22 year old. can do the foulest of things with a smirk on his face....
"I'm the type of nigga your father oppose"-Jay-z.

I am what i am. no more no less. work in progress!!!!

Song of the Day:"Brotha"-Angie Stone



Team USA is NICE. Lebron just did a ILL pass to Bosh...

Gets Better

Now Sony calls me about interning...since i interned there twice in the past, they're giving me a choice of my top three options...

i dunno..Def Jam or Sony?