Me, Phil and Martin were just going over our latest experiences with females and we all came to one conclusion: the females we discussed ALL seem to have this obsession with commitment and relationships that's extremely foreign to us.
My mans Phil had an incident today where he basically deaded this chick he wasnt interested in. My son messed up because he 1.) brought her to the crib and 2.) let her meet the family. I've done both in the past and NONE of those chicks ended up being factors. And the one I actually wanted to do that to, I never ended up doing. My family woulda loved her. She knows who she is....
So my son tells shorty she needs to fall back and slow down. Shorty throws a bitch fit and I'm there laughing my ass off. We're headed out and shorty's leaving like 13 text messages and mad voicemails. Shit is pathetic. I'm just dying of laughter. Then I forget that
- I have an IMMENSE feat of commitment. It's almost debilitating. A "friend" asked me a while back "When you gonna fall in love". My response was "Right time/right girl.No rush". My female friends give me slack and say I need to open up and get over it and all this idealistic sounding ass shit. I dont honestly wanna miss out on a good thing and be on some "Best Thing" (which is ironically one of the songs I've been bumpin' heavy" shit....but @ the same time, relationships and myself are like money and blood-the shit don't mix
- Growing up in a certain family situation, it sorta traumatizes you. I've NEVER been in love till prolly recently and even now, my lifestyle isnt one particularly conducive to a relationship. Especially when the closest thing to a male role model is not particularly a one woman man..........
- I'm not the type to just lie to a chick and tell her I want a relationship because I want some ass. Never will either . Lying means she wont respect you. And every relationship needs mutual respect to work out.
- I'm realizing that chicks like ambitious young power players with potential. EVERY chick I deal/dealt with always told me that despite my ways, I always had "it". I honestly think that I come off as mature with a plan and shit like that isa turn on to females.
- I'm not gonna give myself to a chick and have her try to put a leash on me. My hustle requires me to be out @ random ass times of the day and night. I like my space and if I wanna be questioned, I'll go to the local FBI office. I get disgusted @ how dudes get locked down to the point of where their chick has to know their whereabouts @ all times.
- It's like I keep meeting the right (or right on first few impressions) type of female @ this stage in my life and I'm just totally not ready for anything. I dont like planning out my "dynamic" with a chick because the shit can/will go wrong. Not to mention I'm a huge control freak
I dunno if it's me as well or my aura of stability or whatever the fuck it is, but it seems chicks are on some wild shit about kids.
Chick: "OMG I love kids, I feel like I could have one right now"
Me: "Kids arent on my agenda till 5-8 years from now. I'm not gonna bring a mouth to feed when I can't support it"
Chick: "I can always wait you know"
Me:..............................
Then some shit happens and I get fucked for half and child support. I've seen what child support does and I REFUSE to be a mark. That's why marriage and shit like that is no joke to me. It's not a rush. There's only one girl I ever felt that got away....and she's gotten closer than I've imagined or wanted right now.
I just HATE the feeling of being pressured into something. And I KNOW sooner or later, I'm gonna have more to lose. Damn.
