Anything Worth Getting In This World Is Worth Being Aggressive For

-Spent most my time @ Def Jam today messing with this nightmare Excel spreadsheet that calculates invoices for the marketing managers. It took me a hot minute, but i got the hang of it. I asked for it because i cant just sit and stew and not do anything. I'm at DEF JAM, damnit!!!Tricia has been a GREAT help easing me into it, but I still have that hungry intern mentality. Greatness has walked those halls and I'm just trying to find my path
-Speaking of which, i was telling You Know Who, that as a person of color with experience at top corporate entities on our resumes, when we go into interviews (particularly at organizations of lower repute), we should have the mentality that these companies are assets to us, and not us to them. The attitude I've had for a while is

"Look, I've been at Sony and Def Jam Records. I also OWN my own marketing company. Check the LLC and tax ID #. I am skilled in A&R, Database Management and Marketing (strategic, online, guerilla). I go to Baruch College. i'm ambitious and willing to go as far as I can. Your company is of interest to me due to your strength in _________(industry) and your reputation. We can help each other. I'll offer fresh ideas and an interesting perspective POV on how to do _____(duty) and you can be on MY resume and pay me in (credit, for now)."

People always ask me..."K...why do you intern so hard for free?I thought the industry would pay you?What's the point?"

Narrow minded. You need to pay dues. Everyone who was great at something always spent time learning from someone who knew the ropes. Jay-z learned from Jaz-O and ended up being a Top 5 GOAT candidate. Puff interned for Andre Harrell for free. Dude traveled from Howard U to NYC at 5 am during his internships. Bust his ass and all that. the industry has changed, but the principle is still the same. As long as I can pay my tuition, phone bill and gym bill, I'm good. My boys act like i dont wanna kick it, but it's part of the game.

It's worked since i started at Sony two semesters ago. even with nothing but a burning hunger to intern for Sony BMG. I aint done yet.
-Handed out CDs and bumped into LA Reid. I said hello to him and he responded very cordially. Seems to be a man of the people, as Stasia said he's very personable. I didnt bother to tell him directly about our ideas, but i let his assistant know. Also met Lenny S, formerly A&R for Rocafella. didnt even know it was him.
-Except for one person on the Universal floor, people are very cordial. Surprisingly.
-What the FUCK is taking our website so long to be built?! My (famously already-thin) "patience" is wearing thin........
-Went to a MCing/spoken word event today we got word of from Stasia's dude Shareef of Abandoned Nation, Saigon's label. It was very good with a lotta spoken word and MCs in attendance. the last artists, Atrocity, was nice. Dude could spit and hopefully we can work with him in the future. A lotta talent at that event.
-I'm TIRED!!! (reason why (?) further down)
-LMAO @ Stasia calling me "Young Diddy". SMH. I'd rather model my game after Kareem "Biggs" Burke, aka the Silent Partner of the Rocafella Triumvirate. "The strong move silent, the weak start riots."-Memphis Bleek.I have a problem with self promotion, as I HAVE to let people know my unbiased opinion on things. I'm learning how to be a selective extrovert, as I am among greatness at Def Jam...but with my self-confidence/arrogance (depending on who you ask), I just utterly believe in myself. Now, i gotta learn how to keep a pokerface. Anyone who knows me knows that I tend to say my opinion in a love it/hate it way. I have to learn when/when not to be assertive, which is hard for me because I'm not good @ finding mediums. I'd rather go hard or not go at all. However, part of maturity is learning when to pick spots.
-Disgusted with myself. I saw a cutie at school and didnt get @ her. lightskinned, nice body (butt especially), hair done. SMH @ self. I didnt feel like making an effort. I'll atone another time. Maybe because i didnt have business cards? I gotta learn how/who to give em to. I'm destined for greatness and at the least I need to be around people in my circle who're on the same wavelength regarding getting shit done. I can't fuck with lazy people in general; i have a disdain for lazy females, especially after seeing female family members and friends BUST their asses to get where they are. Meaning Nadia (girl with tongue ring) is off the list or maybe demoted. I aint trying to be a mark or a crutch to anyone. I've even gone as far as making the photos from my IMG album on Myspace private. I usually tell females I'm an intern and that they like me enough to give me business cards. A white lie to protect myself? Ehh, a departure from my usual brutally honest style but fuck it.
-My mom is constantly nagging. Thanks Dad for fucking it all up. Single Black Older Woman=Eldest (Middle) Son's Worst Nightmare. Glad i have reasons to be outside of the house. Now I gotta deal with this bullshit. I couldnt imagine her if I wasnt in school. EVERYTHING is a problem with her nowadays. And for such a devout churchgoer, she seems to be more stressed out AFTER the service. LMAO. Religion is a such a damn hustle.
-Speaking of people close to me, I gotta call my Auntie Carmen!!! I love her. Whoever winds up being my girl needs to learn how to cook her Mac and Cheese Spinach and Beef Pie.
-Speaking of food, my greedy ass finally tried out a spot by "work" called Pieces of Chicken. I ordered Mac and Cheese with two thighs (;-p) and two wings for $6. Can't beat that. I ate it at 4:35 pm..it's 12:12 am and i still aint hungry. I think the fatigue is due from the "Itis". and the irony is...the whole time,I'm remembering the Nas song "Fried Chicken", where he compared fried chicken to a "fly vixen". SMH
-Due to the event, I aint hit the gym today. SMH.DEF going Thursday before class.
-Max B's rendition of "Is She The Reason" by Destiny's Child, "Sexy Love", is FUCKIN' hilarious. Peep the chorus:

"I caaaaaaaaaaammmmmmme, oh shit baby my bad/ You caaaaaaammmmmmmme,cause it's the way, you movin' yo ass/ Stop playin', before I even gave you some ass, you shoulda told me you was gon' cum/ You caaaaaaaaame, baby i didnt even mean to do it/I caaaaaaaaaaame, her pussy'll turn your knees to fluid (LMAO)/Stop playin', before I even gave you my pussy, you shoulda told me that you was gon' come


Is he the reason that my phone couldnt bleep you/ Heard he treat you bad, heard he beats you/Bring that pussy home like you used to do/Still on my grind I'm gettin' money, light the sour up so i could get a buzz!!"

dude was definitely blowin up some sour diesel when he wrote that shit. LMAO! Off Beelzebub!!!
-Ya'll need to stop sleeping on Quaker Oats Cinnamon Swirl Oatmeal. Act like you know!!
-The Grizzlies are spazzin wanting a draft pick AND Zach Randolph in exchange for Marko Jaric and Darko "The Human Victory Cigar" Milicic. Fuck outta here.
-LMAO @ Jenn thinking I lost my mind. Reality is relative LMAO. that's all i gotta say about it.
-my dude wants to go out Friday to some club (negative) but i got work early the next day. SMH. Foxy Brown's album release party is on Saturday....Eric's performing on Sunday night....and i might miss it all. I fucks with Big Gun Cock Fox heavy too. big time SMH @ self.
-The Wire has to have been the greatest drama series I've seen in my life.
-Song of the day Jay-z, "No Hook"...."Hustle 'caine, hustle clothes, or hustle music/but hustle hard in any hustle that you pick."